My Journey

The Disappearing

Not so long ago, I was dying. Not dramatically—but slowly, silently disappearing.

In what appeared to be a marriage but had long since stopped being a partnership, I maintained the facade while internally shattering. My body betrayed the truth my voice couldn't speak: incapacitating migraines that kept me bedridden for weeks, rapid weight loss, crushing anxiety.

The isolation was suffocating. No access to money. Nothing in my name. Being told I owed thousands of dollars. No credit. No support. Making sure my children were safe and continued to have their basic needs met while I myself skipped meals because I lost our joint access to money for food. All while still living under the same roof with someone who was once my best friend and had become my greatest nightmare.

The Breaking Point

During a brief visit to my family, the migraines vanished. I could think clearly for the first time in what felt like forever. But when I returned home, everything crashed back with devastating clarity.

That's when I knew: I was dying.

Lying on a mattress on the floor, an eye mask attempting to dull the searing migraine pain, I had nowhere to go but within:

"Beloved Great Spirit, please help me. I can't do this anymore. Show me what I'm supposed to learn. Show me the way out."

The response came with unmistakable clarity:

"You're going through this so you can help others suffering in silence... You can help break the cycle."

It shook me to my core.

The Reclamation

I started small. Really small—it was all the bandwidth I had.

Just a few minutes of visualization every morning and night. Telling myself a truth that would save my life: I had co-created this reality, so I had the power to create something new. I shifted from victimization to Self-Empowerment.

I wasn't lying to myself; I was remembering my REAL SELF.

My mom - a spiritual life coach herself - and my children were my lifeline.

Little by little, I expanded my support through intentional breathwork, yoga, meditation, journaling, dancing, tapping—anything that might help me feel alive and steady again. Some days, the only thing that got me through was a phone call with my mom or a hug from my children.

Financial independence required brutal humility—asking for help from friends, government support, community, anyone I trusted.

The Transformation

I am not the same woman who was lying on that mattress.

I've rebuilt my health. My children are laughing again. I've stepped into a life aligned with my heart and purpose.

Today, I've made it my mission to help women suffering in silence from fragmented partnerships reconnect with their light through self-love and empowerment—faster than I did.

There are still challenging days, but I now face them skilled with tools that keep me grounded and empowered, even amidst the jarrings that my ex-partner might bring to me or my children.

This transformation wasn't just for me—it revealed my purpose.

My Intention

If you're reading this and any part resonates with you, my heart's intention is clear:

To meet you exactly where you are—without judgment or minimizing what you've experienced. The path I've walked offers insights, while honoring that your journey is uniquely yours.

I intend to share the tools that transformed my life, adapted for your specific needs. What took me years to discover, you can access in weeks with proper guidance.

Above all, you will not walk this path alone. You'll experience being truly seen, heard, and supported—perhaps for the first time in a very long time.

You're not crazy. You're not weak. And you're not alone.

I know the darkness. And I know the joy of returning to our beautiful, unique LIGHT.

There's always a way forward, even if we can't see it yet. I'm extending my hand to help you find it.

Ready to begin? Contact me for your complimentary Sacred Connection Call.

With deep reverence,
RiverRok

Professional Background & Training

My approach integrates formal training with lived experience and intuitive wisdom developed over a lifetime of spiritual exploration. My credentials include:

  • 1008-Hour Embodiment Certification in Prana Vinyasa + Soulful Wellness Guide (500-hour YA Teacher Training) completed February 2023) under the guidance of Shiva Rea. This training is rooted in the living wisdom of Krishnamacharya's lineage, Tantra, Ayurveda, and somatic movement practices, emphasizing the sacred flow of embodied awareness.

  • Bachelor's Degree in Metaphysical Science completed at age 20, providing a strong foundation in consciousness studies, energy principles, and spiritual philosophy.

  • Heart Math Principles Training, offering science-based tools for emotional regulation, coherence, and heart-centered living.

  • Volunteering with Bashar Communications for over 10 years, deepening my understanding of higher consciousness principles and the transformative power of belief systems.

  • Community Coordinator with Samudra Global School for Living Yoga since October 2021, where I help foster connections within a worldwide community dedicated to embodied awakening.

Personal Roots & Philosophy

My journey began early, raised by quantum physicist parents who also practice shamanic medicine—a unique upbringing that taught me to honor both scientific understanding and ancient wisdom traditions. This foundation instilled in me a profound respect for the invisible forces that shape our reality and the power of intentional creation.

Daily, I practice embodying Bashar's formula: "Act on your highest excitement, to the best of your ability, with zero expectation of the outcome." This principle guides not only my personal life but infuses my work with authenticity and presence.

My deepest teachers have been the natural world and my two amazing children, now 12 and 15, who inspire me to shine as brightly as possible. They are both my greatest motivation and my most profound spiritual practice.

Connection to Earth Wisdom

My work is deeply informed by my communion with nature and elemental spirits.

The name RiverRok came to me through my children and the Winter Spirit while on a 28-day lunar cycle pilgrimage communing with the Redwood Elders beside Nii~-li~ (known today as the Smith River)—California's only free-flowing river. This sacred waters, central to the Tolowa Dee-ni' people whose ancestral lands we were visiting, gifted me with a name that connects my work to the enduring strength of stone and the flowing adaptability of water, elements that guide my approach to transformation. (Hear the full story).

During a transformative experience with the tree spirits of Mt. Shasta, I received a download message that continues to unfold and guide my practice:

"We are anchored in love. We are Anchored. In Love. WE. ARE ANCHORED. IN LOVE."

This connection to Mama Gaia’s wisdom reminds me that true healing is always available when we remember our place within the web of life. The elements—earth, water, fire, air, and space—offer profound templates for transformation that I weave throughout our work together.

My teacher and mentor: Shiva Rea, founder of Prana Vinyasa and global advocate for living yoga as a pathway to awakening. Her revolutionary teachings on embodied flow, evolutionary movement, and sacred rhythms form the core of my approach to healing through the body's innate wisdom. Since September 2021, I've had the honor of serving as Community Coordinator for her Samudra Global School for Living Yoga, deepening my connection to this transformative lineage and global community of practice. Through Shiva's guidance, I've completed my 1008-hour embodiment certification, integrating ancient wisdom with modern somatic understanding.

Spiritual catalyst: Darryl Anka, channeler of Bashar, whose profound teachings have revolutionized my understanding of reality creation and conscious evolution. For over 15 years, I've studied these principles, and for more than a decade, I've volunteered with Bashar Communications, deepening my embodiment of concepts like"following your highest excitement" and "you get what you vibrationally put out." Bashar's formula for manifestation—act on your highest excitement with zero expectation of outcome—has become both my daily practice and a cornerstone of how I guide others toward authentic empowerment. These teachings bridge ancient spiritual wisdom with quantum understanding in ways that create tangible transformation.

My greatest teachers: My children have been both my deepest motivation and most profound spiritual practice. They continually remind me why this work matters across generations.

Guiding Presences

My deepest guidance: The Great Spirit that speaks through the silence within. Beyond all external teachings lies this infinite wellspring of wisdom that has guided me through my darkest moments and continues to illuminate my path. This divine presence reminds us that we are never truly alone—we are always held in a field of UNCONDITIONAL LOVE that transcends understanding.

My foundation: My parents embracing at Mt. Shasta as the sun rises on the Spring Equinox. Their unique blend of quantum physics and shamanic practices taught me that science and spirit are two languages describing the same reality.

Earth Wisdom Connection: Connecting with the powerful energies of Mt. Shasta, described by Bashar as the Crown Chakra of the Earth—where dimensional boundaries thin and spiritual awakening accelerates. This sacred volcano holds the paradox of both fiery transformation beneath its surface and crystalline clarity at its peak. It was here I experienced profound belonging, understanding that my authentic self has a unique place in the cosmic puzzle. Standing on this living mountain, dormant yet alive with potential, taught me that true power comes from simply being who we are.